oh, to have those days

So, I was having a pretty crappy morning yesterday, I'm not gonna lie. I was feeling overwhelmed and just oppressed on the whole. All I wanted to do was to crawl into my bed at home and never come out into the world again. Sounds dramatic, I know, but that's how it went-a mass pile-up of so many worries and concerns, all seeking to drag me down into the muck of distraction and oppression. As the morning progressed, I got to the point where I knew what I had to do. Cry out to God. I knew I couldn't go on without Him. From that point on, my day drastically changed. Simply confessing all my worries and lack of trust to God made all the difference. God took me out of myself and my supposed sorrows and brought me back to Him.

At work yesterday this little adorably cute girl, Ximei, came up to me on the playground with this huge smile on her face, looked at me as if to say something, and simply crawled into my lap. No words, no hesitation. All she did was sit with me for a while, which she had never done before. This affection and quiet trust brought a picture to mind. It was how much God loves it when his children come crawling up to rest in His lap....no words, no complaints, no whining. Laying that all aside to simply 'be' with Him, to believe in Him with childlike faith. To know that He is in control. Now isn't that a cool picture. What a blessing. The rest of the day, I couldn't get that image out of my mind. How I long to crawl into my Father's lap. To lay aside my selfish pride and confess how much I need a Savior, how desperately I need my Lord to guide me and love me. Praise God.