Sigh....

So, I figured I needed a picture to match my emotions at the moment. What could be better than my erupting prehistoric-like volcano picture from Costa Rica? Not that I'm really that ragingly (is that a word?) angry or anything, but I just felt that this was the one. I'm tired of being frustrated by all the unknowns in life-of having to wait on God and His timing for things. Perhaps it's just my selfish nature of wanting to control my future, of wanting to tell God how I'd like things to turn out or how I would like to serve Him. I guess in my limited eyesight, I feel like I know exactly what would be perfect for me and I know exactly what needs to happen. Truth is (and this is a shocker), I know nothing. Things could change so quickly in a time as short as a day. Do I really believe that God can do the impossible with my life? Am I so blinded by my own selfishness and unwillingness to give my future over to God that I miss what He's doing in my life right now? I always feel like I have so many questions for God as to why things turn out the way they do. Over anything, I'd rather take my honest frustrations and questions to God, but I'm really trying to learn how to simply come before Him and rest in His love and understanding. To find rest in the arms of the One who has everything under control. To rest in the neverending mercy and patience He shows me when I always get hung up on what seems like the same issues or complaints. He is faithful and will always be. He knows what is best for me. It is in His way that I desire to walk. Now if only I could just get over myself. Exactly the reason why I so desperately need a Savior. I guess that's all of my ramblings for the evening.
I love the Lord for he heard my voice; he heard my cry for mercy......The Lord is gracious and righteous; our God is full of compassion. The Lord protects the simplehearted; when I was in great need he saved me. Be at REST once more, O my soul, for the Lord has been good to you. For you, O Lord, have delivered my sould from death, my eyes from tears, my feet from stumbling....Psalm 116
"Do not let your hearts be troubled. TRUST in God; trust also in me. Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid."~ Jesus, John 14:1,27