Let God Be God--April 22
We see only part of God's plan, for in this life we are mortal, finite in our existence. Yet we desire to see more. We have an inborn inquisitiveness to learn how everything in our experience can be integrated to make a beautiful whole. That's why life remains an enigma...until men learn to fear God. "God has so worked that men should fear Him" (Ecclesiastes 3:14). "Do not be afraid," Moses said at Mount Sinai, "for God has come...in order that the fear of Him may remain with you" (Exodus 20:20). "Stop being terrorized," he was saying, "but fear..." This is fear without terror, it means honor, respect, and reverence. This is our part in God's eternal plan. The nearest word in the New Testament for it is "faith." This is what life is all about. You can have your questions, your confusion, your doubtsÑbut never use them as a reason for not fearing your God. The issue is not agreement. You keep His commandments, obeying what He says, whether you agree or not. And this obedience produces enjoyment of the "whole"; this is what it means to be human. God's plan is established. It all fits: He makes the past fit with the future. Everything in my past, my hurts and tears, my joys and victories, my failures and embarrassments, t all fits to make me uniquely me according to the plan of God. Life has a plan...if we let God be God. Moses wrote, "The secret things belong the Lord our God" (Deuteronomy 29:29). I don't have to be able to explain everything; but as I fear God and watch, His plan for my life unfolds before my eyes.
~Darryl DelHousaye

go kelly...go kelly...

Is this a dream?
If it is
Please don't wake me from this high
I've become comfortably numb
Until you opened up my eyes
To what it's like
When everything's right

I can't believe
You found me
When no one else was lookin'
How did you know just where I would be?
Yeah, you broke through
All of my confusion
The ups and the downs
And you still didn't leave
I guess that you saw what nobody could see
You found me You found me

And I was hiding
'Til you came along
And showed me where I belong
~thank you, Kelly Clarkson

So, this song is pretty darn cheeseball...but, as it randomly came onto my running playlist today, I couldn't help but listen to it a few (ok, perhaps 3 or 4) times through in a row. At first, it got me all sentimental and thinking about this could be me someday...but then as I got to thinking, I found that this was me...and I have been found.... (funny considering I and those who know me real well think of me as being lost half the time ;)
I am found, when I look to this person all of my doubts, confusions, and screwed-up existance just melts into the distance, I am loved ...unconditionally.
Thank you, Lord :)